Exam Revelations

Wrote this a looong time ago, after a long stint of exams. Reproduced from a document with amendments.

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· A day is an infinitesimally, shamefully small unit of time.

· Never discuss your progress in revision with anyone but your study partner (if you have one). Else, you will have people dishing out advice from all directions, beginning something like, “Tu abhi bhi Paper II hi kar raha hai?”

· Mnemonics. Make good ones, but let them be easy to remember. You shouldn’t have to invent another mnemonic to remember one. Yesterday I heard one beginning ‘Teri…’ Naah, I won’t forget that one.

· Poetry and undergraduate Pharmacology are highly incompatible. You could even say they’re mutually destructive.

· Inside the examination hall, when you want the guy in front of you to shake the bench a little less, feel free to tell him so. But make sure the proctor hears what exactly you’re telling him.

· In a viva voce examination, take the examiner to some territory you’re familiar with. If there’s nothing there, practise a nice pitiable face. Also wear an immaculate uniform including a pressed apron and polished shoes. Just in case.

· Study a lot. Learn a lot of small details. But don’t forget – in Heaven’s name – what a rabbit looks like and how it’s different from a Guinea Pig (No, it wasn’t me).

Possibility

Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours.

AYN RAND

Explanation

Shades of Manic-Depressive Disorder. Mild.

Edited College Mag. Hypomania.

Depression.

Presented a Medical Symposium at the Bombay Medical Congress. Child Abuse: More Than What Meets the Eye. Worked like it was the end of the world. Won the trophy. Hypomania. (Depression?)

Depression.

Read Whitman. Nothing.

Depression.

Read Dickinson. A Stir?

Depression.

Exams. Got through.

Wrote some. Never posted.

Two and a Half Men. Yuck!

“Where are you?
Write, dude, write! :D”
Definitely a stir.

Depression.

The Suicide debate. Almost lost a friend over it.

Depression. (Or was that indifference?)

Read Rumi. Recovery?

Ate like a horse and starved myself, alternately.

Tried to write. Load of crap even I couldn’t reread.

Final Year MBBS. Yeah Okay.

The Big Bang Theory. Long lost friends call me to tell me someone here reminds them of me. Uh huh.

Will & Grace. Yeah Baby!

Today.

Am I Okay? Not a clue.

Why am I back? ‘Cuz I need it.

Fools Rush In – The Papal Faux Pas

Please note, before you read further, that I do not have any religious affiliations. Nor do I have anything against any religious establishment or personality. (My religion is the business of me and my God.) This post deals with an idea, not a person. A certain religious personality is recurrently mentioned in this post. I respect that person for all that he is.

If you are an ardent Roman Catholic or very fervently hate condoms, do not read further. Don’t blame me later: you’ve been warned.

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What do you do when you have a problem?

If you were a simple, normal and sensible human being, you would analyse the situation, find out what caused the problem, and then try and fix it. If the problem involves other human beings, you would try to think like them, so you could have in perspective everyone involved. And if you still couldn’t find a solution, you would submit the problem to someone better equipped than you are – resource-wise, knowledge-wise and intellect-wise. If you were a simple, normal and sensible human being.

When some people bypass all these steps in problem-solving and jump to conclusions on an issue they hardly understand, the results are often amusing. Sometimes, sometimes, they are outrageous. A recent remark made by the Pope has evoked a similar response from me and my friends. And I realised reading the papers today that we were not the only ones.

Pope Benedict XVI said in front of the international Media and an aghast medical community that condoms are useless in the battle against AIDS in Africa – they’re not weapons, but may actually aggravate the problem.

I say, respected Sir, what are your references? Have you published any research papers to this effect, or read any? If you think the solution to this problem is imparting a spiritual education to people and asking them not to be promiscuous, what is your experience in this field, and what is its success rate? If you start a campaign now around Africa on this mission of shoving spirituality down the throats of millions of people, would you guarantee the eradication of the virus in say, fifteen years? Do you have any experience in Sociology that prompted you to make a remark such as you did? What do you know about the habits and lives of millions of Africans living in conditions hardly imaginable for a majority of the world’s population?

If you indeed have an idea better than what the rest of the world thinks, can you devise a workable plan involving the required personnel, counsellors, etc, fund it, and prove to the world that you are right?

The distribution and use of condoms has proven to be effective in combating the spread of the AIDS pandemic, however slowly. Thousands of healthcare personnel are spending their lives in this endeavour. An irresponsible statement made by someone who wields immense power over the thought processes of millions of people worldwide can jeopardise the whole process.

We are not fools, Your Holiness. Please do not pull an issue too far. If you don’t like condoms, please don’t use them. But please don’t say they don’t work. You don’t have the knowledge or the experience. You don’t have the right. To solve a problem of global proportions, you need to have these. And if you say that what you have against a deadly, constantly mutating immunosuppressive virus is just a few magic words – well, thank you very much – we have the condom.

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I don’t have an email address for hate mail. Do pour it all in the Comments.

Rebooting

Still alive.

Been busy with a few things. Very busy. Busy like I’ve had no time to step here and feed something in my blog. Poor thing. Looks like it has been starving quite some.

I’ll post a few things related to what I’d been upto in the past couple of months. And I’m yet to fill in Vasudha’s exciting Tag, a few opinions to voice, and a few poems to post.

Thanks to all my friends who have been here, asking me to fill in the spaces. Won’t go away for this long again. Love you all!

The Life Ramblings (No.1)

One of the few theories about life that I’ve been trying to write down over the past few months / years. Not as much a theory as a celebration of the beauties of life.


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Why reproduction was one of life’s greatest inventions:



1. There were a few molecules.



2. They reacted with one another, again and again, for millions of years.



3. They learnt to do things.



4. They were happy.



5. They learnt to do more things.



6. Not all of them stayed organised for long periods. Some of them got hit by waves / rocks / whatever, and disintegrated (read died), no longer able to “do things.” However, more accidents happened as time went by, and more molecule systems appeared.



7. One day, one of the molecule systems which could do things, accidentally broke in half (?).



8. At least one of the halves survived.



9. More of the pieces became larger, and more of them broke apart. More of them survived.



10. A group of molecule systems had found a new thing to do: be able to break apart and try to make the pieces continue “living.



11. These molecule systems were happier, for as the pieces grew larger, disintegration to oblivion was prevented by their own “break but preserve” mechanism.



12. These happier systems continued to live through their pieces.


13. The mechanisms of “doing things” did not have to be invented all over again each time by each new molecule system, as those that lived through fragmentation carried all / most of those mechanisms in them. So the ones that lived on now could concentrate on improvisation – finding newer things to do, and newer ways to do older things.

14. Some of these newer ways were better than the older ones. They lived longer and made more (successful and surviving) babies than the systems with the older ways of doing things.

Ergo, reproduction.

Ergo, selection.

Ergo, life.

Anachronism

The door is locked –

an ancient padlock hangs.

But only yesterday

a grand carnival passed through it.



The door is new –

you can smell the paint;

but there it is

with its rococo design,

the padlock old:



tyrannical, unmoving, old –

keeping the restless crowds waiting.



KISHORE KUMAR

Moral Policing – Who Will Guard the Guards?

A speech I made recently as part of a debate. Not all my arguments on the topic are here: only those that I could fit into four minutes of speaking.

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I think it was Mark Twain, one of the greatest wits we have ever known, who once said, “Morals are an acquirement – like music, like a foreign language, like piety, poker, paralysis – no man is born with them.”

Honourable chair, respected judges, ladies and gentlemen – Moral Policing and why it is an abominable folly. Why the people who call themselves the guardians, the watchdogs of morality, can never be trusted. This is one of the oldest of philosophical debates with its roots in our very definitions of morality, our perceptions of self. I stand here vehemently opposing moral policing in all its grotesque forms.

Now why do I do that? Let’s talk about the origin of moral policing. To explain it very crisply, here’s a simple flowchart:

1. Someone thought there were absolute rights and wrongs that apply to all human beings in general – all human beings who have ever existed. This is a flawed philosophy.

2. The same someone thought, because they were absolute, the rights and wrongs can be actually, practically, imposed on their fellow human beings. This is flawed morality.

3. To prevent people from falling away from these principles, they thought they could use instruments of fear, of emotional, religious blackmail. Hence moral policing.

Ladies and gentlemen, absolute rights and wrongs? Slavery, war crimes, suttee by widows – regular practices in one age condemned vociferously in the next. Values change, my friends. And morality – true morality – is something that resides in the deepest reaches of a person’s heart and soul that it cannot be reached, let alone be guarded, by anyone else.

In the past, all people who assumed responsibilities of moral policing had their own glaring fallacies. We all know what happened to the Christian Church just before the Reformation, what happened to the Taliban.

And where do people who assume guardianship find themselves today? In the most ludicrous of all positions – burning Valentines’ cards, prohibiting casual clothes, and taking to task actors who say that consenting adults having sex is their own business. By far, ladies and gentlemen, the moral nadir of the moral police in all history.

Whether a girl wears full length clothes or casual wear is her own business – what she derives from her own principles and choices. The way I choose to love someone who also loves me, is my business. And for that matter, whom I love, a boy or a girl, and whether I sleep with him or her – now that’s the height of it! Whether I kiss her in a park, give her a card or even a car, is nobody’s concern either.

Directives forcing people to stick to one set of clothing styles, prohibiting them from dancing together in hotels – what, marriage next? – and banning bar dancers, these are the acts of the worst of a generation who feel threatened by cultural variation and assume it their responsibility to bring things back to cultural antiquity.

All such regimes are marked by persecution. There’s always been a master morality and a slave morality. Where do these police get their ideas from? Wherefrom their principles and ideologies? What happens to people who don’t accept them – who happen to be a majority?

This is where the police go wrong. They are based on a conceited presumption that one human being can decide and dictate terms to another human being as to how to live their life and what to do with it. Because values change – one man’s meat is another man’s poison.

And, if there is a Heaven and there is a God, then on the day I stand up to answer his questions, not one human being is going to hold my hand and feed me words – my morality and my reasons are my own.

KISHORE KUMAR

Rights and Wrongs

One of the many things that keep floating in my head and are then converted into scribbles on paper. Posted it in a Comment on Vasudha’s Blog the ther day.

Rights and Wrongs are majestic concepts. They are independent of time and space. They hold good for any age and any nation and any person. They are the compass needles and signposts which tell people of the right directions to take in every situation. They are infallible concepts. In other words, they are too good to be true. Too utopian, too romantic, to actually exist.

History

The end of an evening argument with a friend:

X: History repeats itself.
Y: Repetition is redundancy and redundancy is substandard. I’m wont to think that the story of man is anything but substandard, and that we’re capable of more than just going about in circles. Ergo, the adage about history repeating itself is a gross generalisation.